Splat Goes Life.

Jack has just been bumped up the Level One waiver list, due to his behavior this year. I'm told by his Service Coordinator that she has never worked on a case that the County approved without having Behavior Home Support already in place (and she has mentioned it to us, but frankly, I'm not interested in that right now). This seems to be a special case, considering the fact that Jack has already been accepted as a patient at the university's Dual Diagnosis clinic. This means a number of things for Jack, though he probably wont get the waiver until July. I'm not really familiar with the County waivers. I know of the Level One, and then the I-O waiver. Knowing what they cover is a different matter, though I am currently interested in setting Jack up with either an aide over the summer (preferably a male in his college years), or a summer camp. The waiver would pay up to a certain amount for either, among other things. In the meantime, I have at least the annual pool...

The week of March 17-21, we noticed a pretty nice change in behaviors for Jack, which seemed to coincide exactly with him taking a full dose of Risperdal (.5mg pill). There were still about 20 negative comments recorded on his behavior chart (not in detail, but just the number- 2 here, 3 there, etc), and once incident of yelling in gym class. That weekend was great. Jack was very polite, and while he and his sister did get into it a couple of times, he actually apologized without my prompting or request. Just right about the 24th, I have noticed more grouchiness in general. Daily episodes of general upset about one thing or another. The first time it had to with my picking the park we went to that day. I wasn't really in the mood to go (it was pretty chilly that day), and he wanted to make sure we went somewhere "fun". He also took 1-2 hour naps on his vacation, just about daily. His attitude about school of course increased as we got closer to this past Monday, whic...

I have finally found SOMETHING to help put me in a different frame of mind. Sort of. I Hope. I'm making my own beauty and cleaning products. Deodorant, toothpaste, moisturizer, shampoo, etc.. I'm actually quite enjoying myself. Yes, my son is still having his moments.. but while he's having them, at least I'm putting less crap in/on my body.

Are you a reader? Are you a reader of blogs? A reader of this blog in particular? Well, you are likely alone. Studies have shown that most people who don't have a child with a disability or developmental delay (or even a mood or mental disorder) will avoid a blog of this nature. This isn't to say there is anything wrong with you for reading this, but really now.. Why would you? The author of this particular blog wishes to express that anything you read here is 100% from the depths of a mind which may also be altered in some way. She has very little in the way of daily personal contact with human beings outside of her family, and her son's Intervention Specialist. There may be an occasional contact with strangers at the local grocery store, gas station, etc. It's also likely that in the course of transporting herself to any of these locations, she may curse like a sailor at them, while not technically making contact. This means she is likely going nuts. If you read...

So let's see.. My son got an "Emergency Removal" from his Intervention Specialist's room 3 times between March 10 and 17th. All due to physical aggression towards at least one staff member. I honestly believe that the increase was "helped" by the increase in Elavil. He went from 20mg up to 40 mg, and immediately went downhill, much to my (and I'm sure the school's) absolute frustration. By the sounds of it, from an email the IS sent to the County's service coordinator, they've already got another Behavior Plan in the works. On top of that, Jack's disgust for school was well known to anyone who would listen. He also quit his job turning on the computers in the media center before school. (The principal told me that she convinced him to at least put in a 2-week notice first, and he was gracious enough (HA!) to follow through). I did ask him why he quit, and he said it was because most of the computers were already on when he got th...

Yes, I am a judgmental b*tch sometimes.. something I plan to ponder. more to follow...

I've had trouble the last two nights, either falling asleep or staying asleep. As bad as things have been this year, I hadn't been laying awake anxious every night like I did the last year, and the years before, wondering what mayhem my son would get up to during school the next day. That could be because by this point, he's just going to do something pretty much every day. Same sh*t, different day , as they say. However, I look at my son these days and I see a kid physically unrecognizable from a couple of years ago. So totally different. I feel sick, I feel sad, I feel sorry.. What in God's name did any of us- DID HE- ever do to deserve THIS?? I say to myself I know exactly what I did. It's something I said once.. or maybe twice.. about another mom whose son has Autism. The choices she made. That's a horrible thing, to pass judgement on someone. I am not them, I can't possibly know why they made the choices they did. They didn't deserve THIS any ...