Splat Goes Life.

So let's see.. My son got an "Emergency Removal" from his Intervention Specialist's room 3 times between March 10 and 17th. All due to physical aggression towards at least one staff member. I honestly believe that the increase was "helped" by the increase in Elavil. He went from 20mg up to 40 mg, and immediately went downhill, much to my (and I'm sure the school's) absolute frustration. By the sounds of it, from an email the IS sent to the County's service coordinator, they've already got another Behavior Plan in the works. On top of that, Jack's disgust for school was well known to anyone who would listen. He also quit his job turning on the computers in the media center before school. (The principal told me that she convinced him to at least put in a 2-week notice first, and he was gracious enough (HA!) to follow through). I did ask him why he quit, and he said it was because most of the computers were already on when he got th...

Yes, I am a judgmental b*tch sometimes.. something I plan to ponder. more to follow...

I've had trouble the last two nights, either falling asleep or staying asleep. As bad as things have been this year, I hadn't been laying awake anxious every night like I did the last year, and the years before, wondering what mayhem my son would get up to during school the next day. That could be because by this point, he's just going to do something pretty much every day. Same sh*t, different day , as they say. However, I look at my son these days and I see a kid physically unrecognizable from a couple of years ago. So totally different. I feel sick, I feel sad, I feel sorry.. What in God's name did any of us- DID HE- ever do to deserve THIS?? I say to myself I know exactly what I did. It's something I said once.. or maybe twice.. about another mom whose son has Autism. The choices she made. That's a horrible thing, to pass judgement on someone. I am not them, I can't possibly know why they made the choices they did. They didn't deserve THIS any ...

This past Sunday, Jack's friend from his old school had a birthday party. It was great that he (or maybe more likely his mother) invited Jack. I was sort of nervous about how it would go, because Jack isn't a huge fan of bowling. We've tried it a couple of times, and he just hasn't been into it. He ended up taking off his shoes and wandering. Since I didn't like the idea of him wandering around during a party, I decided to stay with him. Jack brought a stuffed animal with him. A Pokemon character backpack. I wasn't really thrilled with the idea, thinking about how the other kids would react. Would they tease him? Would he start to feel uncomfortable with it being there? Jack was adamant we take it with us, believing that it was important his stuffed animal "experience a party". Jack didn't want it to sit by me, was careful not to react when a friend touched it, but definitely did not care for how I held it when I did carry it for him. (I beli...

Jack's second full week of school since Winter break, and it wasn't all that and a bag of chips. The only thing really positive I can say is that he hasn't physically hurt anyone for almost a full month now. (Kind of sad and even disturbing that I need to even be thankful for something like that). There were several days this week where Jack had an over reaction to something that happened. Either a paper he needed was missing (and the teacher reminded him that he didn't have it because he got mad and ripped the last one up).. or he didn't like the assignment (it's almost always writing, but is sometimes Math related). He did some yelling, he did the ding-dong ditch game, he threw things.. but then he also chose to put his head down and avoid altogether. He often chose staying in the Intervention Specialist's room- maybe to avoid a situation happening, but maybe not. I don't know if that really enters his mind. He's not exactly a planner, and cer...

This week is not going any better, and yesterday I got my confirmation. (This is from an email I received from Jack's Intervention Specialist: Today Jack started the day off in a great mood but asked to stay in my room for the day. I found this odd, since he is usually begging to stay in the regular class all day. He worked very hard.. completed all his work before 10:00. As soon as he was finished with math he refused to complete anymore work and somewhat shut down. He began using negative comments towards me because I had told him that it was time to complete our writing assignment for the day. Jack made it very clear that he felt the assignment was a dumb assignment and he did not need to waste his time completing it. After lunch bunch, 11:45-12:30, he seemed ok when he left for speech but came back after 20 minutes yelling about how much he did not like another student. I spoke with him and the other student and found out it was because the other student touched the pencil s...